Granite, I believe you when you think that T thinks you are faking and pretending. I completely understand your feelings of feeling fake even when you are doing something you enjoy (crafting). I think your T probably does too. She probably doesn't believe that you REALLY don't want to be your son's mother anymore. What she probably sees is that you are in a LOT of pain right now, and might be pushing him away, maybe to save him some pain from the *horrible* person you are.

**i absolutely do not believe you are horrible, nor do i think your son thinks that**

Hold on through these two weeks, Granite. You can do it. I will be here if you need to talk. Keep trying with your T, because I think you can do it.