So, I am currently on 60mg of Latuda, and I want to lower the dose so I have a manic episode. I'm just really scared, because I know that this is like playing with fire because I do not want to get depressed. I've been manic in December (maybe) and in February. I was hospitalized for depression last November, and was depressed this October when I refused to take enough Latuda. I had a mixed episode this Summer before that. I really want mania again, but I'm scared. I was thinking of going just from 60 to 40mg to start, but I only have 7 40mg pills left, and I don't know how to get more. And I'm too scared that if I cut my 60 in half, I'll go through withdrawal. What should I do???

Btw I'm 15 and have been bipolar since I was about 11