So, I've been struggling on religion for a year or so. I'm in some real conflict. I mean, I've been really really anxious, angry, etc. And I've kind of abandoned religion. I used to consider myself a Christian, but lately I've had second thoughts. I don't really believe in Christianity anymore. I believe in some sort of creator, but I've told myself to focus on how to get a hold of my anger and anxiety, and my self esteem, and just try to live my life, and when I'm on my deathbed, then i'll think about religion. I've been experimenting though, And I tried a satanic chant, I don't know why, it was impulsive. This was about 2 weeks ago. Last night I had this really weird dream. I had a dream that There were these people being crucified, and that they were being lite on fire. Jesus was in the center of them. He was on a cross as well. When they went to pour the gas on him, and light him on fire, he wouldn't burn, the fire didn't even ignite. The dream was super weird. I'm not entirely convinced however. It could have been a result of thinking about religion over the past few days, but I don't know.