Yeah it's really too bad. I think all this time if he had ever just been normal about things and asked me out to coffee or something, I would have said yes. And if he ever apologized I probably would have accepted it. I really did want to keep our friendship for a long time. I make friends rarely, and to make a real close friend and be very close with someone is extremely rare for me. So I was even okay if he was gonna romantically move on to other women, but I did miss having that sort of friend.

But instead it's just like every 3-6 months I get a really random, intense contact from him, like he wants to pretend none of that crazy **** ever happened and like we are just right as rain. One time after we hadn't talked in several months and I lived several states away, I got an email from him saying he would drive across the country to come see me to give me some stuff back that he didn't give me back when we broke up, like camping equipment and art supplies. It's just always like why can't you just be a consistent normal friend. Why does it always have to be intense, random **** spaced out by months of silence. Wth.