Not really a bipolar related post, but I feel comfortable with you guys. Sorry if it's all over the place...

I feel so inadequate at my job. Everyone pretty much vents to me about how bad everything is, and how much employees "get away with." I get told management (of which I belong) is a poor influence because we should be at the offices ALL the time. Everyone pretty much assumes they can do better than me.

Backstory: I am a single mom with a child that has ADHD/ODD and goes to a behavorial school a half hour north of where I live and out in the country. They have no after school child care options available, and quite frankly, I can't even afford child care. I work 5.5 to 6 hours in the office and about 2 hours a day at home. So I leave in the middle of the afternoon.

I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do. I constantly feel like I'm a piece of **** even though my job does mostly get done. Most of what I do I can do from home. I've been here 8 years. I always feel like I might get fired at any time, though I honestly don't know where I sit. I'm not sure if I should worry or if I'm worrying over nothing.

I feel like everyone I work with thinks they are better so much than everyone else sometimes [emoji20]

I know this is probably a giant mess to read.