Hello JessLynn: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. I am heartened to read that, although you feel like you hate yourself, you don't want to. That's a start!

It's really unfortunate that you encountered that other patient. The last thing you needed was someone telling you about how easy it would be for you to harm yourself when you got home! And having this occur right at the holidays makes it doubly difficult because so many things, like your therapy group, are on hold.

I can only imagine how difficult this must be for you. But I hope that you can find the strength to keep going until you can get back in to see your mental health providers. You can, of course, always go back to the emergency room if necessary. But also perhaps consider calling a hotline for support. And keep posting, here on PC. It can help too. My best wishes to you. Please be safe...