If you decide you really want a baby, please look in to adoption or something. I know that if I could, I would make it so that I was never born, or that a child with no mental issues was born in my place. I'm a pretty big strain on my family. Never knowing how I'm going to feel today sucks so much, I hate it so much! I know adoption would be a lot different than actually having a baby, but, I have friends who adopted, and I know they couldn't love their kids more! If you're this worried about all these possible complications, and having a child who has to go through all the crap of a mental disorder, why not instead just make someones already existing life that much better with a loving family to call their own? Also, if you're older, and want to not have to wait 18 years until this kid can become independaint, adoption is still a cool choice, because you don't have to adopt a baby. Back to my friends, they adopted a toddler, and she's so cute! They were older when they adopted her and so instead of an infant (they adopted 2 infants much earlier in their life) they took a toddler (you can adopt older if you want, a choice all your own). I can confidantly say on their behalf they are quite satisfied with their choice. And again, I'll have to say, it is in the end, your call, and I don't know too much about life (I'm only 18, but have a few seriously older friends for my age) but I know enough adopted people (my old best friend was adopted!) who are just in such a good place, that I can't help but recommend it to people who are thinking about having kids, but worried about the risks of pregnancy or some such related issues. If you know adoption isn't your thing, you can totally discard what I think, because it only works if it's something both you and your husband really REALLY want. (It's also expensive and time consuming and stressful, but I'm sure you can talk to anyone who has adopted a child, and they'll tell you it was totally worth it!) Just planting the idea in your head, if it wasn't already there. I hope you make the decision right for you and your family, God bless you, and I wish you the best!