I'm writing a letter to my father, John, who abused me as a child. I have dissociative amnesia, and despite all the problems I've had I didn't know exactly what happened until a few months ago and I can't be around him anymore - it's too much. I won't go into the things he does and did, but I know for definite thatI want to separate myself from him.

I'm not sure how to strart it, I've got, "Dear father". but that's all. I know what I want to include. I just need a first line, something less blunt than "this is a letter to tell you I don't want you to contact me again". I've thought about "I wanted to tell you that..." but have no way to finish it. I'm stuck, it's annoyingly the one part I can't word