Ariah,

welcome to the forums. I can relate - I was in the hospital just last month and everyday I want to go back there. I need to feel and be safe, as I am not out here in 3D.

I know that for me, it is a daily battle to stay alive and do what I have to do. I won't lie and say it's easy.

Try to find something to focus on - something positive, no matter how small. You have the strength to keep going - you've already proved that.

Hopefully you are seeing a therapist, to talk and work through the problems.

I wish you lots of support.