Same subject, probably doesn't need trigger but I don't know.
I'm painting now and suddenly started crying and repeating " I don't want her to have sex with him." I need to say that now and cry about it. I feel better getting that out and acknowedging it. I'm not sure if it's child or adult parts or both. All I know is that have to say that out loud.
I emailed T yesterday something like that and in her email back she just said we'd discuss my email in my next session in 2 weeks. She said she knows her going away is hard and brings up a lot of stuff, and that I should try to nurture myself. She reminded me I have family and friends who love me. And that I have painting! All true.
That part who is crying is glad to have me say it's all right to have that thought about T. We'll work it out in future sessions as it seems kind of important.
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