Hi. First time posting. I'm 32 y/o female. This is concerning major depression, but I thought I might try the BPD area first, as it seems I might be BPD, and the extreme inconsistency that I've learned to expect from myself seems to be characteristic of BPD....
My emotional health has been steadily declining over years, and over the last few months I guess I've been going through a major depressive episode. I tried over and over to take on healthier daily habits like yoga/exercise but could not pick up any momentum- everything I try gets harder the more I do it- that weight gets heavier and heavier. So now I'm on Lexapro. So far anxiety has improved but I seem to be settling in to my inclination to lay down nearly all day. One of my therapists has told me that I need to force myself up and into doing things again, but it feels so damn hopeless. My energy level is frustratingly inconsistent, and I've lost so much faith in myself to stay the course with ANYTHING.....
I guess I'm asking for suggestions, encouraging words.. I don't know. It's been a very long time since I've been part of an online community like this. I've kind of forgotten how it works. But I need to speak to others who understand this.

Thank you