For example..tonight I was talking to my friend and told her about what happened with EMS/police coming. She said it scared me straight huh.Thats struck a big nerve. My thoughts of wanting to harm myself are not my fault. Its my brain working against me! I said I cant help but I think its not my fault. All I can do I fight it and work to be better at coping. Scared me straight? I didn't do anything wrong!