Hi onwards. You are very good at hearing the critical comments of the critical self whether from others or from within. Unfortunately I do not hear the balance of the reinforcing self coming out in your post.

So what do you do to find it? One thing that has worked is to put a sign up wherever you will notice it. "What did / do I do right?

Another is to list all your positive accomplishments no matter how far back.

List anything you would like to leave as a legacy to this world. (You have a gift that no one else can give this world - that is your legacy)

Read the book CALLINGS by Gregg Levoy that talks about the struggles people go through trying to find their real calling in life.

Feel free to PM me.

Also we need people to come down to the Christmas - Holiday Party on December 25th in the chat room. 3PM - 5PM EST or whenever you can make it down during thoses times. Look for room CHRISTMAS PARTY (pretty original name LOL)

BTW the most important thing that has helped me get out of the prison of the critical self is laughter. How could that happen? Good question.