Agreed. Your post history is pretty confusing. Your story doesn't follow a straight line or even the same jagged line that goes with bipolar. The job thing alone is confusing; there was the jail ministry and not long before that there was a factory job. I understand the pdoc saying time off now but what happened with those other 2 jobs?

There are options to being homeless that don't involve being an escort. When you were in Arizona I sent you a bunch of them and there will be others where you are now (or you could contact the AZ people and they'd help you find something local). Job and Family services exists to help. There are programs to help people who are low income get heat turned back on and to help with heat payments. If you apply for SSI you can get the maximum food stamp amount while you wait (here it was $200/month), medicaid, you are eligible for heat assistance and either a cell phone with a certain number of minutes or a landline with assistance. Etc.

I'm not going to go through the reasons NOT to do that because you know them. I think it is what you want to do and you want us to say it is ok. You are not going to get that from me at least; I think it is dangerous and degrading and a good way to get hurt in a lot of ways.

I asked why you can't get disability. You are eligible for SSI even if you've not worked. And if you need help geting through the process there are tons of lawyers out there who help people through it every day.

But we can't help much if we don't have a story we can follow or when you aren't taking advantage of the resources we are suggesting.