I got nearly the same as you trippin:

Fearful (anxious/avoidant)...
"attachment-related anxiety score is 5.22, on a scale ranging from 1 (low anxiety) to 7 (high anxiety). Your attachment-related avoidance score is 4.56, on a scale ranging from 1 (low avoidance) to 7 (high avoidance)."

"Combining your anxiety and avoidance scores, you fall into the fearful region of the space. Previous research on attachment styles indicates that fearful people tend to have much difficulty in their relationships. They tend to avoid becoming emotionally attached to others, and, even in cases in which they do enter a committed relationship, the relationship may be characterized by mistrust or a lack of confidence."

This is somewhat surprising cause always thought I was mostly anxious and preoccupied, not avoidant at all... but I guess a lot of heartbreak and pain (suicide attempt, psychotic break...) Will do that to a person. Not sure how to change that without therapy but my therapist says my time is up so it's back to searching for one again. Bla. Don't know if I even really care about the relationship I'm currently in, although I want to. I'd even want to marry him. But I can't make myself feel love towards him.

I'm not sure if I can love anything any more. (Or make myself do so and honestly feel it). Hence I'm anxious that the guy obviously senses this and is going to leave, which is the anxious part. Idk how to let myself trust again.

P.s. I'm reading that book too, borrowed from a counselor who is willing to work with me on attachment (if I quit dodging my appts with him), although I only have a limited amount of sessions. Still, I guess it will be good to talk to him about what I've read when I go back to school in three weeks.