Maybe it is time to try to be something different? Being dependent is much harder than being independent. Perhaps it is time to take a little step and get the help that you are saying you know you need?

I'm not sure that you qualify for IP from what I'm reading; usually you have to be a danger to yourself or others unless you are direct admitted for a specific med change or something. But you do need to reach out to a pdoc and therapist as soon as you can because you do sound like you need help. I thought you liked this new therapist? Can you try to get back in with her?

From things you've said in other posts it also sounds like you would benefit from having some kind of case manager who might be able to help you with housing and some of your life circumstances (unless I'm mixing you up with someone else). I don't know how to get one of those; I think through community mental health?