I guess I don't open up or share. And despite therapist's advice to do so, I choose not to tell him about it. Sucks to have to keep such a big part of me hidden, but he doesn't believe in it... He thinks everything is a choice. Why on earth would anyone choose to have a mental illness? And even if one did try to make themselves mentally ill, that is abnormal and therefore implies a mental illness of a different sort (facticious disorder anyone?)..

so Idk.. all I can say is that I empathize and can understand to some extent.. my bf thinks committing suicide is just natural selection. Now do you really think I'm going to come out and tell him I've attempted twice? Yeah if he believes in natural selection, I am sure not a "fit" person in regard to the "survival of the fittest!" However, I did survive both times... but still, even choosing to do so and go down that dark path... I guess that was a choice. Having the illness, the hurt and pain, and call it what you will- I choose to call it abuse- that was not my choice. Not my fault.