A hand-full of years ago, now, I first began to talk about secrets I had kept for a lifetime. I had intended to take them to my grave. But since I was actively trying to get rid of myself, & people seemed to be concerned about that, I decided maybe I should talk about it after all. In retrospect, I wish I had kept it to myself. All talking about it did was to intensify my desire to talk about it even more. And the reality was that no one was really interested...