Ok, I'm going to sound like a stalker, but I am very confused by you. You are posting asking for help but your posts don't line up in my memory so thinking it was my memory I read your past posts. In recent posts you've named 2 jobs you were taking and then never mentioned again, you were supposed to go IP this week, you were kicked out by your pdoc but managed to find one extremely quickly to replace him, you were stuck in Arizona with nothing and then back in Wisconsin with the parents that you said weren't going to help you. You've been extremely manic and now the escort thing. all of that can happen, I'm not saying it didn't, I'm saying it is a lot and your story is hard to follow because it feels like there are gaps.

On the other hand If you were diagnosed with DID at 16 why were you posting on that board that you wondered if you had DID at some point since joining PC in Nov. 2014 (therefore way past being 16)? If you do have DID with bipolar then I don't know enough to help you, but you are posting on the bipolar board and the only other time you've posted about DID was on the DID board with a "Could I have this?". So again, confused and not sure how to help here. Many more of your posts are inconsistent and that makes it hard to help or to know what to say. That's why I read them all, trying to find the narrative because I do think you are a young man who is struggling and I'd like to help if I can but with these inconsistencies I don't know what to say that is accurate and helpful for your real situation.

I don't think you sound crazy. I think you sound like you have some desire to do this and you want some mental health reason to justify it. A mental health board is not a place to talk about being "crazy" with or without cursing; crazy isn't the problem with anyone on this board. We have a disorder. It does not MAKE us do anything. It makes it hard for us to make good decisions sometimes and makes us impulsive etc but it does not MAKE us to one single thing except cycle from manic to depressed. What we do is choices. Bipolar might lead to bad choices but I don't buy that you don't have control of your decision to be an escort. If that is something you want to do then that's your decision. But don't try to justify a decision you know is not socially completely acceptable with "I'm just crazy" because that is not a reason.

Also, in the OP you were saying you were actively doing the escort thing but now you are saying you aren't?

I want to post something helpful but you are confusing me because I can't make your stories come out straight.

Also, I am used to peeling the skin off my fingers when I am anxious or manic. That doesn't mean it is a good idea or that there are no other options because I've done it in the past (this is an admittedly lame example but I'm sick, I'm tired, I'm mid-mixed episode and that's the best I can do).

I'm not going to say more on this post but I will re-iterate: If you really want out of your current situation, apply for SSI with a lawyer (they get paid only when you are approved out of your back pay so no costs to worry about). Go to the job and family services website or office and apply for benefits; you should get food stamps and medicaid. Contact your electric or gas company about heat assistance; here it is called HEAP I think and you can also find out about this online. You have no income. You will qualify. Job and family services may have other things you can apply for. Try to use those options. Find a therapist through community mental health. They may also give you a caseworker to help you through the financial/living situation issues. But take advantage of what is out there for situations just like yours. There is help available. Lots of it. As I said, the places I sent you in AZ may well be able to help you find support/assistance in WI; those places tend to network which is exactly why my friend came up with multiple options for you in about 2 minutes.

Escort if you wish. But do it because it is your decision and don't try to say it is because of your mental health. Accept that it's a choice. If you were manic and did it once impulsively, THAT would be bipolar. Repeatedly and asking clients for financial assistance, that is a choice. Just choose to live with your choices. You are the only one who makes choices for you.