I've mostly just stayed fixated on my mom seeing him and verifying that he was a teenager. I find them less scary than adults. We've also been walking the dogs together as much as possible and I am ready at all times to get a license plate number and call the police if I am harassed at all. Hopefully that will be a needless precaution.

Somehow I'm feeling less paranoid this week which is funny with my shift from depression to mixed. My pdoc told me that she doesn't think I'm going to have a lot of ongoing psychosis once my meds are changed and I get out of this episode and that helps. I haven't had to deal with much paranoia since I've been on meds, so 13 years. She didn't even know me when paranoia was a big problem and doesn't know it was once upon a time probably. I hate it so much. I hope she's right and it goes away when my brain chemisty straightens out.