Sorry it has taken me awhile to get back with you. My horses have taken up most of my day.

I am glad that rest helped you to see the situation more realistically. I wish the best for your job interview on Tues. As you have realized, when you have responsibilities outside of concentrating on the eating problem, you then don't have time to dwell on it.

I know my psychologist keeps telling me that I have to be well in order for me to be there for my animals who are relying on me for care. He also points out that I can't be successful in school if I am sick all the time like the last time.

I know he is right since my 1 month old filly just injured her leg with a wound that went down to the bone. It requires antibiotics 2x/day, & cleaning & wrapping the wound daily. I realize that I need all the strength I can get to deal with my 3 1100 lb beasts & that curious little filly who is constantly getting into trouble.

With all this realization, I am still having problems. Like you, I am nervous about my appointment with my GP this week. He told me not to lose any more weight, & I have lost the same amount as last month. Guess I'll see how that goes in a few days. I'll deal with my pdoc who wants to put me on meds to gain weight next week. I just can't go there.

You have so many good ideas for your future. Helping people with similar conditions as you have is probably a frustrating but rewarding job. Try spending some time to make plans for these ideas to be formed into goals. You may find that by spending time outside of your current condidion may help you recover easier because you won't be spending so much time thinking about the present.

Just more thoughts,
Debbie