I've been psychotic a couple of times. I once thought a demon was possessing me and forcing me to hurt myself. I also once thought my husband was trying to control me and turn me into a stepford wife through my medication. Then I started believing that people could read my thoughts and that someone was trying to kill me by getting me to kill myself. That ended with me stuck in the bathroom at a partial hospital program because I was too scared to come out. I didn't know who was trying to kill me so I was scared of everyone. It was traumatizing for sure. I did recover but to this day if I ever think of going off my meds I just think of that time and then I stay on them.