I had a wonderful day on top of a mountain playing in the snow, having lunch with the view of the city and snow covered trees playing peek a boo with the fog, and opening gifts from my friend. We were kissing, and nuzzling, and looking in to each others eyes. He brought me a sack of silly gifts and an Eternity necklace. Then I went home, and the next day had a Christmas Eve dinner with my ex and my family. My friend went home and had a day with his son remembering his wife who died a year ago. Life is strange, I think I got used to trying to make sure I could understand it so I could control it hurting me and then I got hurt anyway.