Sorry to say, but I'm in a VERY dark place and feel bad for posting, but have nowhere else to go with it. Very much alone. I've have been giving the hospital very serious consideration.

I think I can ride it out. There's something to be said for unfinished business. There are 2 things that I need to do, but can't until Monday. (I'm doing at least one of them regardless of pulling through this.)

In the meanwhile, I've had a big cry, a hot shower, and am going to spend time on the forums (helps to focus on others). Then a big ol' bowl with my name on it and medicating myself to sleep.

FML

Sorry.