dont know if it's okay to rant but it's hard meeting people with similar interests as me because when I reach out nobody holds on long enough I guess I'm boring and stuff I wanted to shower but it's hard being alone with your thoughts I have a boyfriend but he's happy and i always want him to be sad too and I know it's selfish but I just feel isolated and sad and I don't want to deal with making friends sometimes I'll go on chatrooms but everybody just wants to hook up and I'm already in love I'm tempted to cheat honestly just to talk to more people but honestly everyone is so boring. I am so terrified of anyone finding out how I truly think. I just want friends and I know I'll get comments from people offering but then it would just be a pity friendship I need genuineness.
about me: undiagnosed depression, suicidal tendencies