I'm having a hard christmas. Alot of crazy drama has happened this year and it's taking time to simmer down and I know i just have to be patient and have faith but its very scary right now and hard. I was supposed to go to my holistic medical appt tomorrow and I made the appt working around my mom's schedule she could take me. Now because of a fight we had,she drunk texted awful things to people trying to make things worse with dramas going on. Then she disappeared and has only said she is sleeping all day today. She was supposed to come by and won't confirm if she will still give me my ride. I don't feel ready to go alone. i have agoraphobia and my main support person is already busy at work. Im going to lose money because I can't cancel the appt. I downloaded Lyft app to see if i can make the courage to do that tomorrow but I don't like pushing myself to do things before I'm ready. This is ridiculous. What do I do? My main support person has been crazy at me lately no matter how logical i am and how much i prove to myself i am trying. They don't even care i am pretty much over the ptsd I had. It just seems like everyone is so self involved in their own problems and all I need is a little bit of support to help myself move forward again.