I suffer with depression, suicidal ideation, & have SEVERE trust issues. I have an older brother (apx 18 months) who has suffered with depression & SI as both a teen and adult. He seems to understand more than most but not completely.

I have people all the time telling me I need to goto a mental hospital. I even debated this with my brother today. A mental hospital is supposed to keep you safe? Well I can think of 3 ways to kill myself inside. They make rounds every 15 minutes. If I'm too dumb where I can't kill myself in 15 minutes then I shouldn't be alive to begin with.

I was told to goto a P doc and tell them everything except that I want to kill myself and that I cut. Well what's the point in going if I can't even trust them to tell them everything?