Do not have sex with random guy please. You probably feel bad because sex with no emotional connection is typically not satisfying in a long run. I hope you can find a therapist who can help you. When I was your age I did same things you do now. I wish I went to therapy then, not at age 50. I don't regret anything and I can't change it but I looked for love in all wrong places including having sex with no feelings or commitment. Please find good therapist and start the work now. You deserve it

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