I've been on Effexor for about 5-7 years. I seemed to have developed a tolerance for it and was upped from 150 mg to 300mg and Wellbutrin was added too.

I was doing well on the 2 but changed jobs and lost my insurance coverage. I stopped taking the meds about 6 months ago. A few weeks ago, I began feeling pretty low and couldn't take it. So, I saw my doc last week. He's new to the practice and it was my first time meeting him.

He actually talked to me for about an hour. And, he asked if i'd be willing to see a shrink. I told him I would be. He also mentioned he thinks I may be bipolar but couldn't be sure without an evaluation. I believe he asked if I'd be willing to do that and again i said I would.

The purpose of the appointment was so I could have them fill out the physician's portion of a financial aid type application for free/discounted meds from the pharmaceutical company. That was taken care of and I was told I should hear in about 7-10 days if i'm accepted or denied.

But, there was NO mention of a referral or evaluation. I didn't ask about it because I thought it would be scheduled as I was paying my bill. I was wrong.
Ever since that appointment, I've been feeling so off. I've been really tired (can feel the tiredness in my bones), down, but my heart and mind have both been racing, and haven't really been able to sleep well let alone do much of anything productive.

I don't think I can make it 'til I find out if i'm accepted/denied for that program. And i really think I could use a shrink to help me figure stuff out and get my crap together. I just feel so out of it and can't stand it. On top of that, my mom's been bugging me a bit about being tired all the time and not doing anything (well i do go to work).

My mom also just started getting on my case tonight about helping straighten up the iving room to start getting ready for Xmas, of all things. She wants me to help her get rid of stuff, reorganize and etc. The thing is, I never go in the living room except to pass through on my way to the kitchen. All the stuff she' s complaining about is HERS. And, i've tried helping her before. Nothing i suggest/do is right. I just can't deal with that right now. And now, I feel guilty because her health hasn't been that great these past couple of years. I know she thinks i'm lazy and get the vibe that she's been sick (including a week in the ICU, no one sure if she'd live for the first few days) and still does all this stuff and yet here I am not doing crap.

I'm thinking about calling the doc's office again Monday to schedule another appointment. I want to ask for a shrink referral and see if there's anything he can give me to help me feel better while I wait.

I'm afraid to call for another appointment because a week hasn't even passed yet. I'm afraid the people at the doc's office will think i'm an idiot or some kind of freak or something. I'm also afraid of them not having any samples.

I'm also kind of worried about the possibility of being bipolar and possibly going back on antidepressants (just the effexor). Isn't that supposed to be a bad mix?

I just don't know what to do and feel so out of it...