Hi black-roses. I'm sorry to hear of your experiences with men. I see the title of your thread, and I have to say that you strike me as neither timid nor disinterested. I mean, perhaps you are timid, I'm not sure, but it seems to me (and I could be wrong) that the way you are with men now is an extension of your experiences with your uncle and cousin. Have you considered getting help with this? Talking to someone? I'm not sure if you realize, because you said that you don't want to say no and anger them, and possibly have them hurt you as a result, but they're hurting you already. Also, I'm not sure if these are people you spend time around on a regular basis because that's not entirely clear, but you may want to stop spending time around men alone, one on one, if you don't feel you can defend yourself or say 'no' or 'stop'. You are not there for other people's amusement or pleasure, you are your own person and do not deserve to be treated the way you are describing. I hope you find a way through this. Welcome to PC.