i am stuck
the others are at college studying subjects they're interested in and they go to parties with a lot of new people.
i'm stuck with different mental issues. nobody will ever find a cure
i spend the days inside and i know nothing will ever get better
i am a burden
i am very jealous of others my age. why did i have to have this illness? my body deteriorated. i have the body of a 85 year old because the illness destroyed me
i'm jealous of healthy people. they travel but i can't because i feel dizzy and nauseous when i leave bed. my days are rhythmed by muscle pain, nausea, diarrhea, severe stomach pain and depression coupled with too many intense emotions.
i want to explore but i can just watch others live
they re living what i want. they all think i'm faking it because it cant be that a young person has these issues. i'm so jealous of healthy people