Hi Kayleigh

Im sorry to here you wish you were never born. Maby in time you will grow to feel differantly. You know i've gone over all the prows and cons many times and the answer is still the same. My husband and i would love a child. Adoption is great but not for us. My husband was adopted and had a bad experance. For that adoption isn't in our cards. Im glad it worked out great for your friend though.

As far as being worried goes, i'm not worried about having a child. Just the tubal reversal but that will be over soon.

You mentioned the " crap of mental illness "
I've gotten over that long ago. I am who i am and i intend to make the best of my life and that of my families. I think what really works so well for me in my life is my strength to make the best of each and every day.
As far as being born with my illness. Ive asked myself that question as well. I may have bipolar but im so glad i was given a chance at life. If i was asked the question of not to be born or be born with this illness, i chose LIFE.
Thanks for your oppinion and well wishes. My dissision has been made and if i get pregent, well time will tell. I'm just hoping for the best.

Jacqui