This is what put me in the hospital last January, a memory.

I can visally see instances of being "corrected", but have zero connection to it. No sound, no feeling, no emotions...nothing. Seems like no big deal, right? Well, I went looking for an emotion and big mistake. It was more than I can handle, I started dissociating and crying, and got drunk x3 to kill the lingering memory....2 weeks in the hospital.

Lesson learned...."DO NOT ENTER!"

Do I want anymore of that? HELL NO!