I absolutely agree spondiferous. I thought and was thoroughly indoctrinated that if i sacrificed everything for education that somehow my life would work out when I reached some far away goal. Now in my mid-30's, I am finally realizing just how wrong and dangerous that is. If I don't put myself and my health first, there won't be anything left to get grades with. It's the living that is important anyway.
I see this post was originally from Dec. 15. i hope you found some help and peace, ajourneytothesun
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Originally Posted by spondiferous
I went back to school finally a couple years ago. Then my sister died and I just stopped being able to function. I was honestly convinced that would be it for me, but I completed a part-time distance-based course and did really well in it. I know that for me, I can't function when I'm in distress. I have OCD and agoraphobia and together between the two, terrifying things happen when I'm having episodes/symptoms, including thinking/feeling/seeing/hearing things I might not otherwise experience, having violent intrusive thoughts, and then being too overwhelmed by anything to leave my house. I think you should honour yourself. It might seem like leaving school would set you back, but if it's going to set you back more to stay, you'd be better off taking the break now. But the truth of the matter is, it looks better in the long run anyway if you take care of yourself first. Besides, if you continue with school, and continue to suffer at the same time, your grades and performance may continue to suffer.
Hope you get it all figured out. It sounds like you're going through some scary stuff right now. I empathize and my heart goes out to you.
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