I think I mentioned in another post that I tend to obsess about things that might not even happen....

I was over at the home of a work friend this weekend. She's considerably more plugged in to the grapevine than I am, so I have to hear everything from her ;-). We have a new general manager coming in January, and there's a credible rumor floating that he's going to clean out my department. My friend said that my name hasn't come up, but that the other 2 are goners.

One of my hottest hot buttons is the threat of unemployment. I was unemployed for almost all of 2002 and I know I can't survive it again. My finances are screwed anyway, but I can't handle the emotional duress again that unemployment brings. So even though I'm supposedly "safe," I'm freaking out.

This morning, my boss didn't even say hi to me (usually the first thing she does) and seems to be going out of her way to ignore me. When one of the sales guys came over, he said hi to the other 2 and to me he said, "Oh, you're here" -- like I'm not supposed to be.

I forgot my Xanax this morning ;-) and I'm working myself up into a state of horrible anxiety and panic. Can somebody calm me down, please?!

thanks

Candy