Dear Recluse1, and Kimmydawn,

Thank you for understanding me - I need that, someone who will listen, care and not judge me!

I feel guilty in many ways, yet angry and confused - one minute I'm fine, next I cry; then feel anxious. I seem to be going along well for a while, then all of a sudden I hit rock bottom.

Originally went to see this T because of a traumatic experience at work that I was exposed to - required by the establishment. He did not start all of the sexual stuff until payments had finished.

I guess I don't know if it's just the sex or the emotional side of things that harmed me the most. My seasons went from 50 - 90 minutes each week - can't remember what happened within some sessions, just his face and chair in different positions around the room - very weird!!!

He also believed in 'temple sex - goddess worship' which he was trying to get me to be part of (this is the nicest and most polite way of saying this!).

Reporting, I have given his name to the board - but they want me to place it in writing (in case there have been any other complaints, or any in the future - which is what you both are saying to me).

There is also for me to consider other aspects! I just changed universities to escape any daily encounters - so this will hopefully help!

my heart to you both - thanks for listening

SSR