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Originally Posted by hopeless2015
I think the hardest part for me is just being diagnosed this year people are waiting for me to go back to who I was before and I know I can't. I was steadily declining and I can't pretend to be what I'm not anymore!! Every day is hard
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I could have written this. For all these years, I put on a strong front that I was okay in the midst of my symptoms, even though I was falling apart most of the time on the inside. I was always the leader, always the strong shoulder for others, always the peacemaker, the one everyone comes to with their problems. All the while weaving in and out of depressive and hypomanic episodes. It has just gotten to a point where I can't keep up the ruse anymore. I'm 43 and I'm spent. Lol.