Okie,

Your words are kindness to my soul, wisdom and hope that uplift me!

I feel so horrible about your rape - my heart and my prayers to you !

I guess one thing that is coming from my pain is that my Doctorate is in power/knowledge nexus - Foucault. Fast am I learning he has the power, skills and all the knowledge that I do not have.

I know this sounds funny, but I wish this did not happen, that I could just erase everything and live so care free.

I agree with all you have said, and yes, I WILL STAY AWAY FROM THE ALCOHOL TOO!

My two other friends sleep with their T too, it does not bother them - they have moved in together - they both find it hard to understand me (why I don't cope with my situation - weird!). It's like it is normal. I did try and seek help from another male (only 1 session), he said there was nothing wrong with my T sleeping with me - so, I 'm a bit lost in it all.

Appreciate your kindness and words of hope.

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