I've just had it with everything! I'm so tired of battling anxiety and depression and now knowing I have Bipolar, it's almost too much! The meds have wrecked havoc on my body that was already wrecked! I'm off everything but Lamictal and I'm still gaining weight. It's like the Lithium just wrecked everything! I was already overweight and it's just creeping upwards. Then I just got a letter from my husband's life insurance through his company. They won't cover any extra over basic since I'm now over their weight limit (wasn't before all of the meds), and because I was honest about my history of depression and anxiety. I should have f'ing lied. This has brought me to a whole new low!

Plus, Christmas F'ing sucked! My FIL was a totall A-hole! My dogs were out of control, so I left early to come back home (three hours from their house) and left my husband and son there to enjoy themselves.

I just don't know what to do anymore! I have a new therapist, a p-doc and nothing is working and I'm now a depressed/anxious/Bipolar FAT COW! Life is just great! (note sarcasm!).

My p-doc wants me to try Neurontin (generic Gabapentin). Yeah, right! I'll probably just put on even more weight! No thank you!

Thanks for letting me rant!