I find myself thinking the same thing. I work at a job that I basically like, but the job is not that exciting. I work at typical hours (m-f) and I feel blessed that I have it. I agree that the weekends go by like a flash.

I feel pretty alone in the world. Fortunately I have one friend and that does help. But there are times that we don't get together on the weekends. We rarely get together on the weekdays because we live somewhat far apart. On the weekdays, I don't mind that there's no one home with me because I've had enough with dealing with people. But on the weekends, I feel pretty lonely.

I feel like I'm in a routine and a rut. It all goes like a well oiled machine. But I feel like it can lead me nowhere. And I don't know what to do to change. Also I feel like there's nothing much in the future to look forward to. I constantly think about how the good things I have going for me now will end up being taken away from me. That gives me a lot of feelings of dread.