i am so sorry for you (((((((((((sleepingsacredrose)))))))))
i have no words to express to you for my deep sorrow for you...you have every right to be angerier than angry...sadder than sad....i wish i could be there for you ..this may sound weird but perhaps instead of seeking a counciler at this moment seek someone you admire respectably..someone like a friend, or religious leader or a community elder or family member that you can go to? Perhaps give yourself some time away from the whole therapist thing...even just a few weeks...and talk to them about the experience and how you felt and how you feel...because if your so upset right now with therapists and you rush into one...even if its a female....you might have a rush of feelings that you cannot handle at that particluar moment...i dont know if im saying anything concrete...but i dont want you to have to worry about going from therapist to therapist in this most upsetting time for you....i hope i have shed some thought for you...if not thats fine hope i just helped you feel alittle better by knowing that you have someone (actually all of pc not just me hehe) that care about you and want the best for you ((((((((many safe safe gentle hugs..or handshakes if that makes you feel better))))))))
love, inny