Thank you both very much. I want to take your advice but it is trying. I keep telling myself that I will listen to this song just one more time. But I've said that over and over again. I did just take the Clozaril. In fact, I just now took my evening meds (1:30 AM). My husband (and constant reminder) is not here. Perhaps it will help? I'm not feeling particularly tired at the moment. I don't know why I am such an idiot and can't focus on things that I need to do. Instead, I practice self-destructive behavior.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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