I don't feel human either. I did find a group that I belong to which is Al anon. Everyone I meet there has gone through a lot of the same hurts and unmet wishes that I grew up with. Growing up with an alcoholic mom who moved me around the world makes me feel like I came from Mars. What helps to reach out to other people in daily life is to be courageous enough to tell my story. Some people can't believe I came from such a hard life and some people tell me their story - I connect with others just for a while and then I am on my own again. It also helps to admit when I am hurting from the past or from things I've done because I developed unhealthy ways of reacting and thinking. There are a lot of us Martians out here, we actually can have some great times because we have learnt a lot from surviving. Thanks for giving me words to explain how I feel as well.