I appreciate you sharing this, d.o.a. I was neglected/abandoned by my parents growing up, and to this day I still feel completely alone and detached from everyone and everything no matter what happens, how well they treat me, etc. There were many things in life they (parents) never protected me from that should not have happened, things they as parents should have dealt with as I was only a child, as well as the constant judgements and other assorted unpleasantries. It never occurred to me to consider it a loss until just recently, I'd say within the last few years of therapy. It gives me hope to see that others (like yourself) are speaking out about it as well. I wish you peace and healing.