Oh no, that has to be so difficult! We are closet people...always have been like a turtle. Any personal originality is like buried deep within us to avoid detection. Any bit of self esteem has been beat, yelled, and screamed out of us until just recent, but also then do we feel the shackles of instilled self-restraint.

I've seen your other post on the bipolar section....congrats on quitting and getting the help you need! I'm so happy for you.