I had a mixed episode back in November and ended up in the hospital. I felt just like you are feeling now. I was self medicating with alcohol (which only made me more depressed) and weed (which only made me more paranoid). I was also taking a lot of klonopin and it didn't help my anxiety at all. It was a scary experience. I'm still recovering from it.
I hope this eases up for you soon.
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