I'm on my Christmas break vacation and, due to a slow down at work, it's been extended in this week as well. But this nice break has not stopped a one time dream, turned nightmare the other night.

Well, I guess this is going to reveal the controversial type of work I'm in. Really. Some people don't care or mind, others mock me. So I normally keep it on the down low and just say I work in an office. Which I do.
Anyways, in my nightmare, everything was all dandy up until I found myself at a work similar to where I actually work, except I can see the people the autodialer calls for me. I boy picks up and the study I'm on allows kids to participate. I ask the boy if he's interested in answering a few simple questions and he agrees. But then this horrid, frightening demon appears out of this black vortex behind the boy. It startles me so bad that I jolt awake and the scary feeling lingers for a few minutes.
This job I'm at is stressful, unfulfilling and a damper on my social life. Plus, I've been told I care too much about the respondents and not aggressive enough at keeping them on the line. My self esteem and confidence has taken a huge hit over the years and the only thing that is masking that is it's giving more strength and a perspective about the type of person I am.
I don't feel I belong nor believe in the corporate world. I want to be an artist, illustrator, climatologist and continue to be there for my kid more often after school.
I have a lot of resentment towards my job that is not family friendly in the least bit. I've been guilt tripped and scolded for having to cancel a shift because my daughter had to go to the hospital.