Spent the holidays with my son and grandchildren. It was a good day. Spent the next day with my grandchildren. I enjoy them so. I have been fixing up my home for sale. In part to get back into living but in part to help my son. It is difficult being around my son. He most often indifferent toward me. I know he loves me but that indifference makes me feel bad about my self. Unloved if you will. I don't think it is in my best interest to live in the same home as my son but he is going through a tough financial time and I don't know how else to help him. But I can't help him at my expense. At the expense of my sense of self. So I keep fixing up the home for sale but in reality I have no idea what to do.