Cash,

Your words read like your mind is reeling. Sometimes for me, taking prn's make it worse instead of better. Would washing out your system with a few glasses of water help? Anything else I could say to you - you already know. You know this will pass, you know which part is delusion - even when its happening, you are doing great handling your difficult episodes, and have done great over and over as they have come and gone. You are an inspiration. Hang in there sweety - and other then water - what about something to force you to sleep? Night med? tomorrow and active children WILL come.