i feel so horrible about myself. how can i ever show my ugly face to anyone? i don't even want to see my parents right now. they're in the living room watching a movie and i'm in here in my room with both doors closed.

i don't want to eat. my body repulses me. my face disgusts me. why did i think that loosening the reins for Xmas was a good idea? i'm hideous. i'm ugly. ugly girls don't matter in this world.

now i can't even enjoy my xmas gifts. why do i have to be pretty anyway? who decided girls must be pretty or else? i hate them.

i'm worthless because i'm not attractive to men. i'm going to die alone.

that is all.